Hee hee!!

I have a secret! Who wants to know? Oh, YOU do? Well if you don't know by now then I'm not telling. lol.

Also, vacation was a blast. It was so nice spending time with family!

Benji turned 2 on July 1. How bittersweet. I'm glad its over. It was so hard to hold back the sobbing. My little boy is so grown up!

maui onion

chips. maui onion chips. are delish
and my shift key appears to be stuck.
and my husband just got a motorcycle and he looks hawt on it.
and i need to go get breakfast made.

peace out home dogs.

Whiiiine

I'm so disappointed in myself. There are times to keep certain people in your life, and times to let go. I don't believe in dropping people like flies. I'm a firm believer in second chances. But when the mention of someone's name or seeing them in passing brings a knot to my stomach, maybe it IS time to let go, you know? But if I do I feel as if that person would "win" the constant battle we have...

Ugh. This is me rambling as usual, but so be it. Those few of you that read this already know who I'm talking about, and if you can't remember, then you need to talk to me more often! ;)

So as it stands, I will continue to be civil and respectful and keep my mouth shut. No sense in making waves from a thousand miles away!

all is well with the world

How can I look into my toddler's chubby face and not feel my heart swell with love for him? I love it when he runs to me and puts his short little arms around me. <3 Aaah, 'tis love.

Please don't ever grow up Benjamin.

ADIDAP

All day I dream about pie. Okay, just for the last 15 minutes or so. I NEED some apple pie in my life.

I'm to the point where I'm willing to go to the nearest grocery store and get some. I haven't had a craving this strong since I started breastfeeding Ben. Lol. Maybe it's all the extra nursing sessions he's needed because of being sick?

Pieeeee!!!

It's a God thing

The weekend before Eddie left for his ISO, we started going to a little church up in the boonies .We fell in love immediately. It just felt like... home.

We found out the next Tuesday that he was leaving in less than 24 hours, and just like that, I was home alone with a crazy toddler. Its no coincidence.

They've been ridiculously welcoming and warm towards me and Benji, inviting us to all the functions and calling to check on us, things his squadron hasn't even done!

It means a lot to me to feel like we're part of something organized again. We were bouncing from church to church for over a year, never feeling quite comfortable. Its nice to be home again.

Anyways, I've never been a fan of church buildings and religion, but the fellowship and love is undeniable. I'm just glad :)

I'm not very good at this

So, yeah. I suck at blogging. Whatevs.

I'm feeling pretty good right now. Its late at night. My little one is in bed. 10ish days before my sweetheart comes back home to me. Life is good.

I took a trip down to my parent's ranch this past week. It was a whirlwind, but it was great. They look so good. I love the familiarity of it all, despite the fact that I never lived there for more than 3 months at a time from when I was 14.

I love the life we've chosen. I love to travel and meet new people. I love the instant bond between other military families. But I so wish that the people closest to me, my own flesh and blood, weren't strangers to my son. What if Eddie stays in for life? Will B ever get to know his cousins?

:/

I don't want to talk right now. I'm feeling lonely and sad and bored.

Day 07 - A Picture of Your Childhood Crush

Eeek! I can't remember for the life of me what his last name was.... Ryan something... We "dated" for all of 2 days, but then he got in trouble and he was crying so I told him it would be best if we could just be friends :o That was in 5th grade, and I'd had a crush on him since Kindergarten. Maybe when I go home in March I can dig up some old pictures :D

Day 06 - A Picture of a Person You'd Love to Trade places with for a day

Oops, I'm behind a day! Who would I like to trade places with? Wow, that's a tough-y! I'm super happy where I'm at, but I think I'd like to trade places with my hubby. He's smart and strong and hot and gets to fix stuff and wear a cute uniform. Plus his wife is an awesome cook ;)

Day 05 - A Picture of Your Favorite Memory

This is tough. How can I narrow this down a bit? I was looking through old pics. This is our first night home from the hospital, with Eddie fresh out of Basic Military Training for the Air Force. I missed him so much, and I had waited 9 long months to meet my baby. I felt so lonely without them and my heart was finally full when I had them BOTH in my arms. Eddie left the next day.

Ooo, I liiike it!

I like to make stuff! Music, crafts, clothes, curtains, food... all kinds of stuff! And I'm pretty good at it! But here's the thing, I've always been a Jack--no, Jane-of-all-trades. Master of none :(. Really. I'm good at a lot of things, but I'm not great at anything.

I think I've resigned myself to just not having the focus and drive to choose one thing and commit to it. Everything I've ever tried, I've done well. Gymnastics, piano, sewing, baking, school, whatever. But I'm not known for any one of those things because I can't seem to find the passion and patience it takes.

So what do I do? Continue to be "just okay"? I feel like if I can't do whatever I want, whenever I want to, I quit because I'm bored. I need the flexibility that comes with doing what I want to do! Maybe I'll grow out of it, who knows? I'm still young. I've got plenty of time to figure out what I like and stick to it!

Day 04 - A Picture of Your Night

Siiiiiiigh. Its 9:10, I'm eating a bowl of Honey Bunches. Peach flavored. Blegh. Blogging. Watching my kid destroy the house. Oooooh the joy. Hubby at work. Sucks.

Day 03 - A Picture of the Cast from Your Favorite Show

Day 02 - A Picture of You and the Person You have been Closest with the Longest

My sweetheart, my Eddie. We started dating the Friday after Valentine's Day in 2007. I have the attention span of a gnat, and I've been fully in love and committed to him since 2007. That's insane!

Day 01 - A Picture of Yourself and Ten Facts

1. I get overstimulated easily
2. I could eat Belgian waffles every. day.
3. I have the attention span of a gnat
4. I married my soul mate
5. I'm a clean freak
6. I like to pick up hobbies from time to time-- most currently, quilting
   
7. I DESPISE being ignored. Look at me when I'm talking to you!
8. I'm trying to live deliberately in every way-- financially, environmentally, the way I parent, in my marriage, etc.
9. I'm very impatient and quick to anger
10. I'm very loyal to the people I love

30 day photo challenge

Yup, I'm gonna do it. This will be the motivation I need to get in the habit of writing a little bit and letting off some steam. It will be fantastic, emotional-- a roller-coaster exhibiting my incredible daily life! Stay tuned :)