Hee hee!!

I have a secret! Who wants to know? Oh, YOU do? Well if you don't know by now then I'm not telling. lol.

Also, vacation was a blast. It was so nice spending time with family!

Benji turned 2 on July 1. How bittersweet. I'm glad its over. It was so hard to hold back the sobbing. My little boy is so grown up!

maui onion

chips. maui onion chips. are delish
and my shift key appears to be stuck.
and my husband just got a motorcycle and he looks hawt on it.
and i need to go get breakfast made.

peace out home dogs.

Whiiiine

I'm so disappointed in myself. There are times to keep certain people in your life, and times to let go. I don't believe in dropping people like flies. I'm a firm believer in second chances. But when the mention of someone's name or seeing them in passing brings a knot to my stomach, maybe it IS time to let go, you know? But if I do I feel as if that person would "win" the constant battle we have...

Ugh. This is me rambling as usual, but so be it. Those few of you that read this already know who I'm talking about, and if you can't remember, then you need to talk to me more often! ;)

So as it stands, I will continue to be civil and respectful and keep my mouth shut. No sense in making waves from a thousand miles away!

all is well with the world

How can I look into my toddler's chubby face and not feel my heart swell with love for him? I love it when he runs to me and puts his short little arms around me. <3 Aaah, 'tis love.

Please don't ever grow up Benjamin.

ADIDAP

All day I dream about pie. Okay, just for the last 15 minutes or so. I NEED some apple pie in my life.

I'm to the point where I'm willing to go to the nearest grocery store and get some. I haven't had a craving this strong since I started breastfeeding Ben. Lol. Maybe it's all the extra nursing sessions he's needed because of being sick?

Pieeeee!!!

It's a God thing

The weekend before Eddie left for his ISO, we started going to a little church up in the boonies .We fell in love immediately. It just felt like... home.

We found out the next Tuesday that he was leaving in less than 24 hours, and just like that, I was home alone with a crazy toddler. Its no coincidence.

They've been ridiculously welcoming and warm towards me and Benji, inviting us to all the functions and calling to check on us, things his squadron hasn't even done!

It means a lot to me to feel like we're part of something organized again. We were bouncing from church to church for over a year, never feeling quite comfortable. Its nice to be home again.

Anyways, I've never been a fan of church buildings and religion, but the fellowship and love is undeniable. I'm just glad :)

I'm not very good at this

So, yeah. I suck at blogging. Whatevs.

I'm feeling pretty good right now. Its late at night. My little one is in bed. 10ish days before my sweetheart comes back home to me. Life is good.

I took a trip down to my parent's ranch this past week. It was a whirlwind, but it was great. They look so good. I love the familiarity of it all, despite the fact that I never lived there for more than 3 months at a time from when I was 14.

I love the life we've chosen. I love to travel and meet new people. I love the instant bond between other military families. But I so wish that the people closest to me, my own flesh and blood, weren't strangers to my son. What if Eddie stays in for life? Will B ever get to know his cousins?